The End of an Era

Recently I have been thinking back upon everything that has happened in the last ten years. I have experienced pretty much every emotion that there is... and at times I didn't think that I would make it through. But I have made it through and I continued to grow and experience, and progress. I wouldn't take back a single thing that happened. Good or bad. Everything in my life has brought me to this point, and I am so excited for what the future holds.

I am turning 25 this year and I feel like everything that is happening this year is a sign. It's the end of an era... and the beginning of something new. I can't wait for the next adventure to begin and bring on new experiences to add to my ridiculously long list.

I will try to keep you posted as to what is going on. But at this point... Too soon! But I can't wait.

Absolutely Everyone Can Come Inside...

I have a new favorite song. It's a little goofy. But I thought that I would share it with you. It's a little vulgar, so be warned.

The sun will come up... But not for long.

I try to be a positive person. I try really hard. People think that it's just me, I'm naturally perky. What they don't know is the internal battle I am constantly fighting in order to appear that way on the outside. I don't want to say that I've had a hard life, because overall, I am a very blessed person. But after saying that, I must say that I've had to deal with more trauma in the last 7 years than most people have to deal with in a lifetime. Much of it is my own fault. I got myself in some really bad situations and I have worked really, really hard to fix the wrongs that I have done, and to overcome the wrongs that have been done to me. I think that I have made amazing changes, and I am proud of myself for having the will power to change. The thing that I'm having a hard time with now, is that just when things seem to start going right, something happens. Always. I can have a good couple weeks, sometimes even a good month or two. But then without fail, I am put back in my place. It really feels like there is something out there that is trying to keep me from being truly happy. Maybe it's a lost memory that I need to deal with before I can get to that point or maybe it's just my fate to deal with all of the trauma that others aren't strong enough to handle. I don't know, but I need a break. I need just one thing to go right, and stay that way. At least for a little while. Is it too much to ask to have a small bit of peace? I know that I am strong person, but I can feel my strength slipping. And I'm not sure how much longer I will be able to keep holding on.

I'm sorry that this post is such a downer, but I really needed to vent for a moment.

I Can't Think of Anything Clever.

Wow, what a long year. Overall it was great! I met some great people, got rid of some not-so-great 'friends', and had a lot of fun! Following in last years footsteps, here is a list of my more memorable moments throughout the year:



January - Cessation of My Unhealthy Habit



February - Vegas Baby!



March - The Great Escape



April - Arggh...



May - Bad Ideas...; Pic-a-nic Summer Lovin'



June - Hello again, parents house...



July - Vegas Con La Familia



August - Welcome to Adulthood, Andrea!



September - Attack of the Kidneys.



October - Expelliarmus!



November - Avast! Yea nasty Swine!



December - Deception of the Arscholoch