Absolutely Everyone Can Come Inside...

I have a new favorite song. It's a little goofy. But I thought that I would share it with you. It's a little vulgar, so be warned.

The sun will come up... But not for long.

I try to be a positive person. I try really hard. People think that it's just me, I'm naturally perky. What they don't know is the internal battle I am constantly fighting in order to appear that way on the outside. I don't want to say that I've had a hard life, because overall, I am a very blessed person. But after saying that, I must say that I've had to deal with more trauma in the last 7 years than most people have to deal with in a lifetime. Much of it is my own fault. I got myself in some really bad situations and I have worked really, really hard to fix the wrongs that I have done, and to overcome the wrongs that have been done to me. I think that I have made amazing changes, and I am proud of myself for having the will power to change. The thing that I'm having a hard time with now, is that just when things seem to start going right, something happens. Always. I can have a good couple weeks, sometimes even a good month or two. But then without fail, I am put back in my place. It really feels like there is something out there that is trying to keep me from being truly happy. Maybe it's a lost memory that I need to deal with before I can get to that point or maybe it's just my fate to deal with all of the trauma that others aren't strong enough to handle. I don't know, but I need a break. I need just one thing to go right, and stay that way. At least for a little while. Is it too much to ask to have a small bit of peace? I know that I am strong person, but I can feel my strength slipping. And I'm not sure how much longer I will be able to keep holding on.

I'm sorry that this post is such a downer, but I really needed to vent for a moment.

I Can't Think of Anything Clever.

Wow, what a long year. Overall it was great! I met some great people, got rid of some not-so-great 'friends', and had a lot of fun! Following in last years footsteps, here is a list of my more memorable moments throughout the year:



January - Cessation of My Unhealthy Habit



February - Vegas Baby!



March - The Great Escape



April - Arggh...



May - Bad Ideas...; Pic-a-nic Summer Lovin'



June - Hello again, parents house...



July - Vegas Con La Familia



August - Welcome to Adulthood, Andrea!



September - Attack of the Kidneys.



October - Expelliarmus!



November - Avast! Yea nasty Swine!



December - Deception of the Arscholoch

Bucket List

Life should not be taken for granted... I was lucky to learn this early on in life. I would prefer to have learned this lesson an easier way than I did, but I truly believe there is a reason for everything and I plan to make the most of it. Since my last eye opening experience regarding how fragile our existence is, I have been making a bucket list, and trying to accomplish them all early in life.

• Ride A Horse
• Go Bungee Jumping
• Sky Dive
• Go Fishing
• Go Cliff Jumping
• Four Wheeling
• Snow-Mobiling
• Go to an Opera
• Visit New York
• Visit relatives in Denmark
• Drive a boat
• Visit as many countries as possible
• Start my own business
• Become a mother (whether through adoption or naturally)
• Make a difference in someones life
• Publish a book
• Find my soul mate

This is really all that I can think of right a this moment. But I plan to add to this as I think of other things. You never know when your time will be over, so I plan to check things off of this list at my earliest possible convenience. And I hope that you all will appreciate the life that you have and begin listening to your heart as well as your head.

+1s and then some.

It's hard to be single around the holidays. I would much rather be single on Valentine's Day. On V-Day, it doesn't really matter if you have no one to share it with. It's an incredibly commercial-ized, ridiculous holiday that I think some needy woman came up with to try and make her man be romantic. Anyway, as I was saying. It's worse than usual this year, I have multiple weddings dinners and parties that I have been invited to. And they all ask if I have a +1... So, since I don't have a man that I have wrapped around my finger and thus they are required to go, I really have to think about the question. Who will be at the party? How many will be single? Are the couples who will be there the awkward type? Should I ask someone to be my +1? If I ask someone, do I ask just a friend? Or do I ask someone that I am interested in? If I just ask a guy friend, will he think that it means more?


I know that seems like a lot of questions, some unnecessary, but I sadly have unknowingly led men on in the past. I don't know what it is, but some men tend to misinterpret my friendliness as interest. And in one situation, I chose to ignore the signs of him falling for me, because I was being selfish and wanted attention. But that's a whole different blog post... maybe.

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I know that this photo has nothing to do with this blog post... But I was looking for the perfect picture to accompany my word vomit, and I stumbled upon this beauty. What better to catch word vomit that an eco-potty?







I don't think that anything could possibly top an eco-potty in this blog post, so I will bid you adieu.

Happy traaaaaiiiiilllllls to yoooooooouuuuuuuuuuu, until we meet again...